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Sunday, March 28th, 2004
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2:57 pm
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9:02 am
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| Friday, March 26th, 2004
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7:50 am
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i fucking try to express how i truly care for just one second on this and get bitched at, why not just kill me now for all i care
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| Thursday, March 25th, 2004
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7:32 am
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| Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
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8:59 pm
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| Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
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8:51 pm
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Well today started funnily. When i got to school i was transferring my books in my trunk and suddenly i feel the car shake, and rushton ahd just hopped in the car. I dont know why but i thought it was fuckin hilarious. So yea, that was good. Then in drama i found out my one act kicked ass, youll have to come see it to find out. Umm so the rest of the day was same old, boring shit and just paying barely enough attention o understand what was going on. besides philosophy of course because mr duda fuckin rules the fuckin planet. That guy is just so fuckin awosme. And then after school i raced over to work where there was some extremely overweight girl from Dominican University who was looking to work there so Lynn(my supervisor) showed her and me some stuff then i just filled waters the rest of the day, so nothing special there.
So yes, today wasnt very eventful to say the most. And well now no one is really talking to me so im not really talking to them, zacks method doesnt work for me i guess. ah well. Anyways, today was wierd, more on that later
current mood: Empty
current music: Pennywise - What If I
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| Monday, March 22nd, 2004
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6:43 pm
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Well today was.....interesting to say the least. Got my one act in first except my director, ye'ell i think is how you spell it, didnt have a script yet so i went to the computer lab and saw mr grant damon sir and hung out with him while being a hypocrite by wearing a lgooed shirt, sigh, sad thing is i kinda like it as comparison to my oversized shirts i normally wear. Ah well. So umm philosphy was also awsome for the critically acclaimed MR. DUDA!!!!!!!!! is our sub for the whole week. He was getting all philisophical then got into somehting on the passion of christ and started dancing around the room, it was the funniest thing in the world. It reminded me of chris farely on those "DA BEARSH" skits where theyd talk abotu football with accents. But yea, that was fuckin awsome and completely made my day. Then at lunch andy copeland and i went as usual on monday and this time we went to subway. After we got our food we were gonna leave but as it turns out my car battery was killed so i called up AAA and got them to come with jumper cables. Now i woulda been pissed as hell if it werent for mr duda. I also called up my mom to lend me her car cause we kinda had to get back to school. So we ended up getting back to latin about 15 minutes late but the class really hadnt started yet which made me chuckle inside myself. So the rest of the day was same old same old, then my sat tutor wasnt as bad as before and went by a lot faster. OH SNAP!!! OH FUCK OH FUCK!!!! I FORGOT TO TURN IN MY CLASS SHEET FOR RECOMENDATIONS FOR NEXT YEAR CLASS WISE. OH FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK THEY BETTER ACCEPT EM A DAY LATE. AHHHH FUCKNUGGETS. not cool at all. and surprisingly im not as pissed as i should be for mr duda is just so cool. Hes like senor cardgage just not as cool as him but close to it. SO yea, interesting day.
current mood:  mellow
current music: HW2NW - Better Than That
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5:32 pm - My Theme Song - Nu-Clear - Right Here
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| Sunday, March 21st, 2004
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4:49 pm
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oh good god my neck is sore. ANd good god sat prep work sucks. and good god am i bored. and good god am i procrastinating. WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
current mood:  cranky
current music: Nu-Clear - Sami's Friend
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| Saturday, March 20th, 2004
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11:45 pm
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Woah what a fuckin awsome show. Id have to say, if the kgb werent all around awsome liek they were, nuclear for sure would have been the best band there. I mean, they got the whole place jumping, and usually theres a few people who are like "psh im too cool for this" but it was everyone. It was fuckin cool. I mean the only real problem with nuclear is their bassist. He was very full of himself and looked like justin catelago and also looked like a mix between thug gangsta and good charolette. But besides him they were awsome as awsome could be. THe kgb is all around cool cause thye are just, sorta funk but sorta rap but sorta rock all at the same time. so that filled my desire for funk music. Yea, only problem that night was i would go somewhere and copeland would follow, then hed get a little too close for comfort so id move a little ways away and hed keep moving closer. By the end of the night i was very annoyed for some reason. But yes, julia found a random hankerchief that grant and chad had a lot of confusing fun with while solemite was playing. So at the end of the night i come out with a sore neck, 3 cd's, 1 solemite pin i should not have bought, and a nuclear t-shirt. it was an awsome night to say the least.
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Funk Music
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| Friday, March 19th, 2004
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4:10 pm
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| Thursday, March 18th, 2004
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7:20 am - wow pretty accurate, especially the part about contol
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PINE
You are angelic and dreamy. You are the kind of
tree that likes to dream big and live your life
openly, no matter of the criticism. You love
things that a magnificent and quiet. The cold
is your favorite thing because you never change
when faced with a difficult situation or
inquiry. A quick thinker, and a philosopher,
you spend your afternoons trying to solve world
hunger. You love testing yourself to new limits
and being faced with new challenges to
overcome. You aren't much of a risk-taker, and
you always try to do what's right. You fear
being helpless and faced with a situation you
have no control over. You value endurance of
the body and the mind. When you leave this
world, you hope that you can inspire those
after you to do something better for the world,
and be remembered for something great.
What's Your Inner Tree?
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| Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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7:14 pm
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Do i have a reason to thrive anymore? or is it all based on these false dreams my brain implants that will never come true? I found a motivation to thrive but the dream that would come from that would NEVER happen. Its really quite odd how my brain works. or, more in general, how the human brain works. We are never satisfied with where we are, and always want what we cant have. For me its both are the same in that i have been striving to get a girlfriend all through highschool, and failed miserably which makes me stronger and each time ive liked someone ive learned something new about myself, which is odd. I also made changes to myself, for the better i hope, but lately, just cause allergies and depression mixed makes anger, ive been an ass hole lately. But yea, my goal hasnt changed throughout high school, and it keeps me going. Well at one point the thing that kept me going was a song by pennywise (my own way) but still. But lately its drive has started to fade and i needed something or someone new to fill it. Well ive found the motivation i needed to improve myself and help me become physically and mentally more than i would have all this year. This year for me was one of not caring and just lie back and see what way the wind takes me. Eventually that gets annoying and you lose yourself too much in it untill it affects other aspects of life. But yes, im happy in that sense that i have found a source to draw forth motivatioon even if it is a false dream that would never happen, maybe it is that despair that its falso that fuels me. And i really would want that to be true, even though it wont. oh and if you want to know what it is just IM me and depending on who you are ill tell you or ill dodge around it, and if you dont have aim just ask me at school tomorrow. But yes, its nice to have that even if its a lost dream. Anyways thats all thats interesting in my life right now. I gotta go work on an essay on morals and my philosophy notebook, bye.
current mood: content
current music: Thursday - Signals Over the Air
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| Tuesday, March 16th, 2004
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9:06 pm
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Wow last night was wierd. I was extremely nervous for some reason(maura you cant get mad cause you know why) and it was causeing my chest to hurt and making me short of breath. Well i was more the definition of nervous than extremely, thats how nervous i was. And it isnt too big a deal either. Or shouldnt be. Arg, well today my nerves are shot and i felt sick so i went home at 3rd. parents still made me go to work though..... Ah well its cool there. So now im still short of breath and sick feeling but ummm.......still having toruble breathing.....oh yea not as nervous as before, but close to it. All right as shown through the fact that only 9 out of 22 people with actual journals read mine, i should feel left out, right? all right well im gonna go back to being paranoid about everyone hating me, so gnight.
current mood:  nervous
current music: Mindless Self Indulgence - Bite Your Rhymes
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9:01 pm
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5:43 pm
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Your Energy is Green. You are easygoing, stable
and bring feelings of peace and natural harmony
to those in your presence. You have good
perception and awareness about most things, but
you don't apreciated sudden surprises.
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| Monday, March 15th, 2004
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7:55 pm
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Well umm, today was filled with paranoia. yellow card - brand new was in my head the line "another sunny day in californ i a.." all day cause it was sunny out. umm yea.........im very confused right now. Uhh tech hours were fun as usual. yea, thats pretty much all i can say.....
qotd: who still reads this?
current mood:  crushed
current music: Yellowcard - Back Home
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6:54 am
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6:38 am - here it is again
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| Sunday, March 14th, 2004
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9:58 pm - Im terrified right now
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Wel lets see today was an awsome day. Woke up at 8, first time ive actually slept in on a weekend during the school year. Then sat around for a bit. I called coco to see if she was goin ot hte beach and yes she was, with chrissi and alli too. So then i wait around till 2 ish and as im about ot leave i get a giant bloody nose. After that i need to get gas so those were two little delays. Then i figure ill follo the person ahead of me who has boogie baords and such in their car and i have nfc how to get ot stinson. So they turn into some place that says muir beach and i think that might be it after about 5 or so minutes so i turn around, get there, turn back around, figure ill drive onthe road i was previously on till about 3 and if i dont see the beach ill just go home. I couldnt call anyon for i got no reception. So the view coming to stinson was a fuckin mazing. I mean good god it was beautiful. then finally when i see the beach i get the most amazing feeling of relief over me that i found it.
After that i eventually after sitting there in stopped traffic get ot the parking lot and get a spot. SO i hop out and realize that this is a giant ass beach and i have such a little chance of finding them. So i wander out to the beach trying to find a signal for my phone but no such luck. I climg the nearby hill thinie and look around of them, and right as im about to go take a jog down the whole beach i spot alli and so i found them. The rest of the day was spent on the beach either in the water or playing volleyball with the beatifully amazing and amazingly beautiful alli chrisie(is it a y, i might as well ak so i dont get it wrong, sorry if it is) and coco. Also there were some random senors who a few i knew the names of but didnt really knwo them. So that was awsome. Our conversatons ranged from the meanings or the spellings of the words reek or wreak for smells, good ole reek wins the game. to discussing the gender of beaches. yes, good times. Then becaue of my mom being paranoid(maybe thats where i get it from) i had to leave at 5 so id make i back before dark and i wouldnt be driving "that accursed road" at night. On me way back though i saw john pasvenkias heading towards the beach very randomly. Umm so then i went home and did nothing for a while besides talk to people on aim like the loser i am. ANd then i did my homework and now im updating teh satan. alright well gnight folks, hope your weekend was awsome.
ive been doing long entries lately havent i?
current mood: Paranoid
current music: The Used - Pieces Mended
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